Aghast with sudden horror - I spy an orange leaf It dangles crisp and slowly falls To greet the few beneath But when, I ask, for surely not? The summer can’t yet pass! Though conkers minesweep up the path And dew adorns the grass The bees are few and fewer As the birds grow quiet still Seems rain is falling more than not So sleep, can I, until-? The sun again is brighter And the days end not till late I’d dose a draft for winter As for spring I can not wait … But then I step upon the leaf The crinkle brings a smile Perhaps I’ll watch a dozen fall Then role among the pile.
And winding down these summer roads The fickle day has flown My thoughts fall out the window To the fields they once were grown Pull over for the moment And pluck at grass and heart No matter all the mileage when I’m always back to the start.
Around them shades are waiting With dimmer, lesser hues Engulfing as the seasons glide Though still their roots pose shoes -To take a walk in others And feel the breeze, or pain Brace their wild unending storm And fight their hurricane Would the tree grow taller? And shield its kin from hurt Or could the bark fall weaker still Drain colour to the dirt Perhaps the leaf has fallen -The penny down the well But still the wood is ignorant As far as I can tell.
Some days I walk to mundane planes, And taste with narrow tongue, The colours stretch from hue to hue, The shapes amass as one, With you I see as if for once, True life, within my scope, And with your arms around me I feel love but also, hope So find me in this foggy moore, And pin my hand to yours, Lead me to your open mouth, From which my life’s blood pours.
Slumber, but, in many forms, Will crawl to open space, And walking, talking, feeding into that which shapes to face. The bee can’t find the nectar, Sans spectrum and the sting, A robin beak is empty for there’s not a song to sing. A ship without a sail or mast, Adrift upon the fates, Will become one within the sea as life itself abates. Silence is the absence, Space the wholesome black For once you let the fire die it’s hard to burn it back. Slumber, then, throughout the day, Intensity forgot, They pass as breathes through these numb lips as feeling, I cannot.
Of course, to fly you need three things
First the kiss soft moonlight brings
But next is slight and tricky yet
Such subtly- the lack of fret
For when you find the end of thought
The second rule to fly is caught
Now watch my ankles as I spin
This silent cloak I’m wrapped within
And rested now I fall a heap
Engulfed within threes gentle sleep
As now my useless bones with lie
Then, free, my heart will come to fly
My Double on the sticky wood
It fuels the vibe around
Bouncing sunset to the tone
The shadows dance aground
I’ll watch you move and feel your kiss
Though mine are not the lips
The lovers mouth will move in time
As introversion slips
I sit alone, the choice is mine
-A distant scream of joy
Another happy soul alive
A boy will kiss a boy
People watching, time is now
Lights still fleck the floor
I judge tattoos, consider smiles and see myself as more
A buzz unfurls, my knees are numb
I’ve entry to this ball?
I’m lost among the lovers world
I see my guard will fall
We love the night and dance the soul
For first we feel with tou
The slight of hand in ticking taunts
That poke and pry the daily haunts
As fires rise to social flaunts
(Band)wagon wheels churn the ash
Come to see and hark at me!
They rip the words and paint the plea
Paste the past with twine and twee
The preachers tail the dove
Have I become..? Turn tail and run-
Though we sailed the same waves and won
And now they beach to load the gun
I’m left to learn the swim.
The rotting air my pipes repel
I’ve yet to take a breath
In knowing then that weakness wades
Through swamps of crystal meth
What pride have I- or drive or clout
To mould the drying clay
When hurt itself is peeling
At the source of our decay
Be still sweet mind and ponder
Is it wise to gape and goad?
But then again my hopelessness-
And nothing left.
Around them shades are waiting With dimmer, lesser hues Engulfing as the seasons glide Though still their roots pose shoes -To take a walk in others And feel the breeze, or pain Brace their wild unending storm And fight their hurricane Would the tree grow taller? And shield its kin from hurt Or could the bark fall weaker still Drain colour to the dirt Perhaps the leaf has fallen -The penny down the well But still the wood is ignorant As far as I can tell.
Some days I walk to mundane planes, And taste with narrow tongue, The colours stretch from hue to hue, The shapes amass as one, With you I see as if for once, True life, within my scope, And with your arms around me I feel love but also, hope So find me in this foggy moore, And pin my hand to yours, Lead me to your open mouth, From which my life’s blood pours.
Slumber, but, in many forms, Will crawl to open space, And walking, talking, feeding into that which shapes to face. The bee can’t find the nectar, Sans spectrum and the sting, A robin beak is empty for there’s not a song to sing. A ship without a sail or mast, Adrift upon the fates, Will become one within the sea as life itself abates. Silence is the absence, Space the wholesome black For once you let the fire die it’s hard to burn it back. Slumber, then, throughout the day, Intensity forgot, They pass as breathes through these numb lips as feeling, I cannot.
Of course, to fly you need three things
First the kiss soft moonlight brings
But next is slight and tricky yet
Such subtly- the lack of fret
For when you find the end of thought
The second rule to fly is caught
Now watch my ankles as I spin
This silent cloak I’m wrapped within
And rested now I fall a heap
Engulfed within threes gentle sleep
As now my useless bones with lie
Then, free, my heart will come to fly
My Double on the sticky wood
It fuels the vibe around
Bouncing sunset to the tone
The shadows dance aground
I’ll watch you move and feel your kiss
Though mine are not the lips
The lovers mouth will move in time
As introversion slips
I sit alone, the choice is mine
-A distant scream of joy
Another happy soul alive
A boy will kiss a boy
People watching, time is now
Lights still fleck the floor
I judge tattoos, consider smiles and see myself as more
A buzz unfurls, my knees are numb
I’ve entry to this ball?
I’m lost among the lovers world
I see my guard will fall
We love the night and dance the soul
For first we feel with tou
The slight of hand in ticking taunts
That poke and pry the daily haunts
As fires rise to social flaunts
(Band)wagon wheels churn the ash
Come to see and hark at me!
They rip the words and paint the plea
Paste the past with twine and twee
The preachers tail the dove
Have I become..? Turn tail and run-
Though we sailed the same waves and won
And now they beach to load the gun
I’m left to learn the swim.
The rotting air my pipes repel
I’ve yet to take a breath
In knowing then that weakness wades
Through swamps of crystal meth
What pride have I- or drive or clout
To mould the drying clay
When hurt itself is peeling
At the source of our decay
Be still sweet mind and ponder
Is it wise to gape and goad?
But then again my hopelessness-
And nothing left.
Welcome to my world by The-World-Is-Bored, literature
Literature
Welcome to my world
Oh what you feel must grace you grim
This fleece becomes you not
Where shadows blow to bright and back
Your rats and races forgot
Alas, to bare your goading glee
Where tepid, the hours mope
Adieu to yours, my wall awaits
These cheeks swell to your hope
My gauge against your furloughed free
My shoes that once felt vague
For as you find yourself with time
You learn, it to, is plagued.
The rotting air my pipes repel
I’ve yet to take a breath
In knowing then that weakness wades
Through swamps of crystal meth
What pride have I- or drive or clout
To mould the drying clay
When hurt itself is peeling
At the source of our decay
Be still sweet mind and ponder
Is it wise to gape and goad?
But then again my hopelessness-
And nothing left.
what am I to be a calm mountain or stormy sea ? what am I to hear whispers of the forest or prophecy of the seer ? what am I to look for the enchanted stars or the stones on the ocean bed what am I to find the god that rests within or a staff for the blind ? what am I to write my thoughts and struggles or dreams so bright ?
I don't need to self-abandon To chase some dream of peace with you. You will find your peace At your own pace, or not. I will never know peace, Unless I stop running And sit here, alone, with me.
i have been comparing myself to other girls as if we are not all gemstones as if we are not all opals refracting the already vibrant light and splitting it, with atomic axes, into its rawest form, into its seven shades throwing them upon the floor and up the trunks of trees like violet vines or emerald hands we are all prisms, we are not the spectrum, no, we are its master we are unbound by space, or time, or color we are the purity that offers both warmth and frigidity, both scarlet and fever, both blue and black, both heart throb and heart attack we are the electricity traveling to your head along the river of your back i have been comparing myself to other girls as if we are not all otherworldly as if we are not all from different galaxies forged from stardust, from clusters of nebulas, from the dark matter lacing the constellations, from lacerations in existence, from wormholes those timeless cervixes where seconds are stretched like taffy like superlatives in the back of a
I don't suppose its even remotely the usual time I would sit and write in this annual journal here but I seem to have slipped up along the way so what the hey why not live on the wild side.
I mentioned previously about my plans with living and travel and life and life and life. But as is life... There is no frikken plan and sometimes life says ermm, yeah i don't think so mate! ( yes, life is australian) That day I went to China. literally. I flew to germany, then shanghai, i watched films and napped and you know what I was good, I was alone with my backpack and diazepam and all the thoughts of people who love me. It was the 8 hour lay over i
Whoops last entry was 2014. So much for my once a year pre-summer hols entries. Missed one Sian!
Anyway. I can already tell i'm one consistent chick as last time I was listening to loud purring, reading Game Of Thrones, Sewing and Drinking green tea with Jasmine. Woke up to purring at 3AM, still ready GOT ( even though i'm really not ) and just finished a cup! . I hate the word Cup. I always have.
I have just read my last entry so I know kinda where I'm at in life and what to bother to mention. Goodness there is lots and I will have to be reasonably concise for the sake of my own future impatience and attention span. Perhaps I will put thes
So very honored at your interest in and plaudits for my work. I hope you'll give me a few more browses, you might like 'Beach Scene.' I need to do as much for your oeuvre.